As an adult 

He had two sets

The boots he wore to work, and play 

The shoes he wore first at his wedding

then church

and children’s weddings.

a wife’s funeral.

but the boots were every day

marking the miles

https://www.jordanharbinger.com/rick-hanson-the-science-of-hardwiring-happiness-and-resilience/

I Miss You during the Day,
And at Night.
But in the Morning,
In the Twilight between Sleep and Wakefulness,
I Feel you Hold Me

The difference in writing for Yourself
or for Another,

is the difference between Masturbation
and Public Indecency. 

The 37 Bus

It’s a numbing thing driving a garbage truck

There’s a route. Designed to be the most efficient. There’s the routine, the house that always puts it’s can a little too far back. The other house where the neighbors park in the street blocking a can.

Jack used to drive by that can until the day he realized that an elderly lady lived there. Then he would stop the truck and wrestle the can into position. And on snowy days he’d drag the can back up the driveway for her.

Then home again, a new route in the morning, with different hassles.

But Tuesdays. He lived for Tuesdays.

On Tuesdays, on Jefferson Street a school bus stopped, the 37 bus, and She drove that bus.

Seven kids would clamber onto that bus taking a minute or so, and if he’d time it perfectly he would be stopped at Her red sign with the flashing lights while the children boarded.

He knew nothing about Her, probably couldn’t tell you why, perhaps it was Her carriage, or the familiarity.

Perhaps he just recognized a kindred soul.

The summer break came and went. Had ever a summer taken so long to end?

But in the fall, he was there on Jefferson Street.

And a stranger drove the 37 bus.

He pulled up to the next can. 

Each mine had a steam engine, for pumping and operating the lifts. The steam whistles started being used to sound the schedule for the day. The morning whistle to start, the lunch whistle for break, then the final whistle of the day. The surrounding towns soon became accustomed to the schedule, as the whistles could be heard throughout the valley. With the different mines each having their own whistle, and each whistle having its own unique sound, as the individual notes from the mines rose in the air a chord would sound. 
This could be called the song of the valley. But occasionally. An unscripted note would break the melody. There’s been an accident, an explosion, or a collapse. come quick. And some wives would say “Thank God, it’s not his mine” While others would say, “Oh God, not him”

They met in school in the usual way. Supported by their friends and family, the courtship ran the normal course for that time. One of their first dates was to see Peter Pan. He remarked on how her blonde hair matched Tinkerbell’s.

“Oh and I guess that makes you Peter?”

“I see myself as more of a Captain Hook” As he shaped his hand into a hook shape and chased her around the parking lot yelling “Arrgh!” until she let herself be caught.

Their honeymoon was in Disneyland.

The years passed and children came and went. Her blonde hair went silver, and his hands became hooked with age and not humor.

But in those secret intimate times he’d still hold her close and whisper “Tink”

And she’d snuggle in and whisper back, “Captain”

Her magic started to fade, and a solemn man of medicine pronounced her fate. It wouldn’t be long, and it would be bad.

She moved from their home to a shared room. And he’d visit and hold her hand while they watched movies. And then to a private place with a single room. And he’d read to her while she slept.

When it was over the staff came in, removed the tubes and wires. Leaving her pure again as the day they met.

He was allowed to sit with her one last time before the transportation came.


An orderly paused at a noise from inside room 308.

"Is he Clapping?"

The old nurse just shrugged.

C.Dawson 2016